I Love Flowers

I Love Flowers

Sunday, June 21, 2009


hepi father's day..
love u soo much..
dun worry kitorg adik beradik slalu doakn ayah..
semoga ayah ditempatkn di kalangan org beriman..
miss you!!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

~DeDiCaTed To A PeRsOn Dat I LiKe ANd Love DA mOst..~

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair,
I hate the way u're speechless when we meet,
I hate it when you stare,
I hate the way you remember everything I do,
And I hate the way u're always there when I need u,
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
I dun even have the appetite to eat,
I hate that u're always right,
I hate that u're always on my mind,
I hate da way u make me laugh,
Even worst when u make me cry,
I hate it when u're not around,
And that you didn't message.
But mostly,
I hate the way I don't hate u,
Not even close,
Not even a little bit,
Not even at all..

one more thing..
i hate u just because

Monday, June 08, 2009

~ DeDiCaTEd to my bAtCh TKCIAN PHoeNIx 0307~

DEar tKcIan PhOeniX 0307,

We've been through so much,
Through thick and thin,
Through joy and pain,
All the challenges, the tests
God has given us,
We faced it together bravely,
I always knew I could count on you,

I can't imagine life without u guys..
It is as if..
I've got no more wings to fly,
No more legs to walk,
No hands to do my daily chores,
My life will be so empty,
No more late night girl talks,
Sharing problems or laughing heartly
At our embarrassing moments..
I'll never see you smile,laugh or cry that often,
The warmth of our friendship will slowly fade,
And that's what I fear most.
If you ever find a better companion in life,
I just want you to remember that what I have
Is the best I've got,
What I've given to you,
Is the best I can be,
And if you're forgotten me,
I'll pray so that you live happily
And you'll get the best of what life has to give,
I'll be your friend until God takes me away,
And God willing,I'll meet you in heaven and say,


p/s: phoenix0307..really miss u guys..hehe~

~diorg naik roof top...WARDEN, tangkap diorg..hehe~

~during our gradnite..~

~our beloved bj rasmi...kale ijau cam KATAK...biase la trade marks TKC..~

~puteri2 TKC 0307..ayu je sumenye~

~during our ENGLISH DRAMA 07~

~blok kt TKC..kt bwh tu ruang tamu..yg atas tu our dorms..~

~ our batch depan DEWAN SRI BUDIMAN..dh nk holiday time tu..hehe~

~My ClaSsMates CS112~

" I BeLieVe In aNgLe,
The KiNd tHaT HeAvEn
.... I'm SurRoUnDed
bY AnGleS,bUt I CaLl
TheM My FreNS "

Let us begin now..hehe..
frens is important in our life kn??
kalo xde frens,nk kwn ngan sape kn??hehe..
dats y la kwn tu pnting..
so kite kne laa pndai appreciate kwn..
bkn sng nk dpt kwn2 yg bek tau..
so,let me introduce my kwn2 kt UITM SHAH ALAM..
kitorg knal sbb kitorg satu class laaa..hehe..
best tau kwn ngan diorg sume..
Kisahnya pun bermula~~~~

ha!! ni irfan,yan ngan fiqa..
nk tau tak mase mule2 msuk class igtkn diorg bertiga ni pndiam..
tkot la gak kn..
tp rupe2nye si fiqa ni sgt la kecoh dlm class..
mulut die x berhenti ckp..hehe
si yan ni plak ok2 je..
tp agak pndiam laa..
yg si irfan ni lg laaa..
abes diorg gosip aku ngan die..
ntah pape la kn??
malu la aku...

next..nie namenye zaty ngan wani..

dlm class kitorg ade 2 org wani..
wani bsar ngan wani kecik..
tp yg ni wani besar laa..
heheh..besar x??
xde la besar mne kn??
si fiqa,si zaty ngan si wani besar sgt la suke ketawa dalam class..
kalo xde diorg snyap la class kitorg..
skali diorg ketawa xleh berhenti ooo...
mmg lawak
ni plak yan again,mas,haikal and farid..

yang mas ni plak ade cite tersndiri lak..
die ni gaye2 org control gak laa..
kdg2 dlm class time lecturer mengajar,sempat lagi die wat lawak..
mmg kelakar la mas ni...die ni pn baik gak suke kenekn org..
kat dalam class, kitorg selalu gosipkan die ngan fathiah..
kejap lg fathiah akan di introducekn k..
heheh..sabar noo!!
si haikal ni plak terkenal ngan keayuannya..
dia ni sgt2 la ayu kalo korg nk tau..
tgk muke die pun dh bleh agak kn..
tp jgn main2 yea..
haikal ni class representative kitorg ooo...
walaupun muke ayu..
tp berkaliber tau..
hehe..jgn men2..(kononnye laa)
kt class ktorg pggil die JOHN!!

si farid ni lak..
die ni biase2 je...
xde la peramah sgt and xde la pendiam sgt..
hehe..ok2 je...
die ni kalo stdy msti focus gile..
hehe..tkot ooo tgk...biase laa budak pndai la katekan.. hehe

.. plak time kitorg men futsal...time part one...hbat oo kitorg mane...dpt 3rd place
yelaa...lwan ngan senior la katekan..
team kitorg ni hebat sbnarnye..
tp saje je xnk tunjuk..heheh(perasan gile)
tp sbb lawan ngan senior tu la mengalah tu..hehe..
hmm...kt dalam pic ni ade 2 org lg yg x di faizal nafis
and si hassan..
korg nk tau x diorg 2 org ni mmg pndai..
dean list tu...jeles tol la...
hehe...tgk, walaupun aktif men futsal tp dean list gak ooo...
pandai kn???heheh..
diorg ni mmg sgt2 la low profile dlm stdu walaupun dean list...
kalo kitorg xtau pape,tny je diorg cnfirm diorg ajarkn..
bgus kn??ni la kwn namenye..

nie gurlz classmateku
from left:me,mira,farah,ain,afnan,sakinah,thirah,fatty,fathiah,wane,aniss,raudhah and meera..
ha..nk cite mira tu org kelantan..die komander kesatria..die ni lmbut2 je..bersopan santun..
kalo laki kt luar nk knal ngan die ni bleh laaa..hehe..
yg pakai tudung hitam tu lak namenye farah..kalo tgk muke cm org hindustan pun ade..
tol x??hehe..
farah ni plak lembut je..bersopan santun..die ni asal org kl je..hehe..
patut laa selalu balek umah je..
yg sblah farah lak namenye ain..die ni pn cm org industan gak..hidung tinggi..
kalo die g class msti die pakai skirt kembangnye tu..
kalo korg tgk dari jauh pun msti leh knalnye..heheh...
sbelahnye lak ialah afnan..afnan ni bek ngan kembar pn ade..
diorg dulu satu sekolah time skolah menengah..
patutla rapat kn??hehe..bkn stakat tu je..satu room lak tu..hehe..
ni lak sakinah..
tp kt dalam class kitorg panggil die
sbb die lg tua setahun than kitorg..
muke manis kn???putih lak tu..
tp malangnye dh berpunya laaa..heheh
sebelahnye lak,thirah..
thirah ni kt class kitorg pggil die ustazah..hehe..
die selalu bg nasihat kt kitorg ooo..
bgus kn??cm mak kitorg pn ade..hehe...
yg putih ni plak namenye fatimah...
tp name glamour yg kitorg bg fatty je...
glamour x???
fatty ni jenis slambe rock gile..
mmg sporting abes laaa die ni.. tau kwn ngan die...
org negeri sembilan ni...
heheh~ la scandal mas kt class kitorg..
namenye fathiah..
cun kn??
xrugi mas dpt die jd scandal..
scandal je la...heheh..
fathiah ni lembut je..
bersopan santun..
org terengganu ni...
sape dpt die bleh mkn keropok lekor skali...
yg pakai bj kurung purple ni plak namenye wane.. laa wani kecik..
hehehe..sbb mmg kcik pn laaa..
tp jgn men2..dlm kcik2 tu pun ade org minat tau...
dlam clas tgh hot gosip wani ni ngan hassan..
heheh..kbetulan lak diorg pakai bj same color time g class aritu...lg la hot kn???
ni tersnyum manis ni plak namenye aniss
orgnye mmg lemah lembut laaa..
berbudi bahasa..
ape lg ngorat la cpt...
ooops..lupe la plak anis ni dh berpunya laaa..

yg ni lak namenye raudhatul musfirah..
kitorg pn xtau nk pggil die ape..
sbb aritu lecturer QMT pggil die "RAU".. die xske lak..
so kitorg decide pggil die "MUSFIRAH" laa..heheh~
yg last ni plak namenye mira...
kitorg pggil die adik je...
sbb die mmg xckup umo pn..
bdak lompat la katekan..
die ni org shah alam je..
slalu gile balek umah...
xaci btol kn??
hmmm...abes dh cite pasal my classmate kn??
so da conclusion is...
kite kne lah blaja menghargai kwn2 yg kite ade..
so dat hidup kite sentiasa ceria...

Sunday, June 07, 2009

~tHe BeAUtY OF LuV~

Love is beautiful. It is the mysterious force that binds people to those around them. It has infinitely many forms, and each of the forms never stays the same for long. Love is always evolving, and changing intensity. My own experience with love comes in many forms. I love many people, and many things, all in different ways. It can sometimes be ugly, but it is always beautiful.I've had a fascination with love all my life. Ever since I was a young girl I fantasized about the romantic kind of love. I used to write stories about a woman that I some day hoped to be, and how she would find the perfect man for her, her soulmate, and fall in love with him. They would have the perfect relationship and never fight. I thought that was what love was supposed to be like, and why it was so special to people.

This idea threw me for a long time. When I first began dating, I was dead set on finding that perfect kind of love, and discarded any relationship that began to seem like it wouldn't live up. Finally, in looking at the relationships of others, I began to find that this form of love didn't exist. That didn't mean that love didn't exist, but the love I saw around me was a messier, more complicated version. And I couldn't find any two forms of love that were identical. Every loving relationship I saw had its own qualities and idiosyncrasies.When I later began taking part in romantic relationships, I learned firsthand how imperfect love was. Still, it was exciting. Being in love is one of the most thrilling experiences a person can have. I was best friends with my first serious boyfriend for years before we started dating. It was amazing to me, and still is, how our love for each other could spontaneously evolve from friendship to romance almost overnight. It continued to grow and become stronger, and then became weaker towards the end of the relationship, but it was always love, and it was always beautiful. The ability to morph from one shape and substance to another is one of the most beautiful qualities of love. Even though the love I feel for my ex-boyfriend has changed drastically from what it used to be, what I feel for him is still love. I will forever be bound to him for being my first love, something that will never change.

When I first met my current boyfriend, we felt instinctively drawn to one another. I don't know if that's what people mean when they talk about "love at first sight," but there was definitely an immediate attraction. The second we started talking we had an instant connection, and found that we shared many of the same interests and values and ideas. That feeling that you get from meeting someone like that is an example of how beautiful and magical love can be. It is one of the most exciting things that you can experience.

It is so fascinating to me how you can go your whole life without knowing a person, and then when you meet them they just fit into your life and you can't imagine how you were ever without them. It is impossible to know where love comes from, or why, but it comes into your life and you make room for it. You are happy to accommodate it because of all the joy it brings you.

The love I experience now is very different from the kind that I anticipated as a child. Granted, I have not yet found my soul mate, if he does exist, but I still believe that that relationship will consist of the same conflicts and complications as all the others. That kind of love, though, real love, is much more beautiful because of its complications and uniqueness. It is something that exists and has never existed before, something that is constantly changing. Love is the purest example of how tied to each other we all are, as humans. We attract each other, we pursue each other; we become attached to and grow to crave each other's company.

Romantic love, as in all love, can certainly have an ugly side. I have never experienced a love that didn't come with its share of heartache. People forget how dependent they are on each other for happiness and aren't careful enough with each other's feelings. People who love each other are more capable of hurting each other than anyone. That power can be ugly, but power itself is beautiful. The fact that people have enough faith in another person, in the joys of love, that they allow themselves to be vulnerable to such pain, is a beautiful thing.

The purest form of love, unconditional love, is what I find the most beautiful. My parents love me unconditionally. It is so deep and unchanging, something that exists no matter what else happens in the world. My parents know me better, and longer than anyone else in the world. I probably know them better than most people too. There is something beautiful about that, about a connection that exists between people and will last forever.

Love can have varying levels of intensity. Possibly the most fragile type of love is that which I share with my friends. Friends are the quickest to lose sight of their love for each other, and because they have neither blood nor a declared commitment to each other, they feel the least tied to one another. This makes it difficult to get through the harder times during a friendship, and is one of the ways love can show its ugliness. My love for my family, on the other hand, is a type of combination between the love of friendship and the unconditional love between me and my parents. It is certainly a complicated form. We hate each other sometimes; our love can turn ugly very fast, and change back just as quickly. We fall subject to that sense of insecurity that we won't always be there for one another, but at the same time know that nothing will ever prevent us from being family and caring about one another. I value the volatile love that I share with my family, and the conditional love I receive from my friends, because they help me learn more about loving others and what it means to deserve the love that others give you.

Loving others is one of the best ways to become a better person. The love you feel arouses your curiosity and makes you interested in learning more about others, and as a result, the world we live in. When you love someone, you do everything you can to take care of them and try to make them happy, This often means sacrificing the things that make you happiest. Learning to be more giving and selfless is an incredibly beautiful thing.

I believe my obsession with music stems from my obsession with love. I write music myself, and I've noticed the songs that turn out much better than others are the ones about love. This can mean love of any kind, the love of other people, the love of life, love of nature, love of a hobby or interest. Love implies passion, and passion inspires beautiful music. When people care about things, they choose words and notes more shrewdly, and are able to create sounds that are entirely unique to that particular song.

As I love music, I also believe that the word "love" can apply to objects, places, and experiences. This form of love can serve as a sort of substitute for the love of others when one is all alone. Usually, however, I've noticed that my love of objects and abstracts tend to stem from my love of people. For example, I love the sound of the ocean, because it reminds me of being at the beach with my cousins. I love thunderstorms because it reminds me of crawling in bed with my parents, feeling absolutely safe despite the howling on the other side of the window. Our connections with people stem into all aspects of our lives, and make us feel loved even when we are not surrounded by those who care about us most.

Perhaps you might say that because I'm only nineteen years old, I couldn't possibly know that much about love. However, I think the wonderful thing about love is that it's something everyone can experience. As you get older, you certainly have more opportunities to love others and be loved. That doesn't mean that the love I feel, or that a five year old feels, is a no less accurate portrayal of what love is. It is whatever I feel it is, as well as whatever that five-year-old feel it is. Love, like beauty, is in the eye of the beholder.I think the reason that love is such a beautiful thing is because it is a lot like beauty itself. It is that unspeakable connection to certain people or things for unexplainable reasons. It is very abstract, can be hard to describe, and is something that everyone defines differently and applies to many different types of things. It heightens our emotions and makes us feel truly alive. People will never lose their fascination with it, because it is inside us all to feel it, to share it, to let it fill our lives.